how do i start?ok,i'm confuse...things i see and things i feel.its not a good feeling.its all mixing up and it seems it wants me to feel pain.what i'm seeing..how can i say it?am i doing something wrong?yeah,but what?when i think about it,why do i always feels like i'm the one doing the wrong thing?is that true?so many questions wondering in my head but i cant seem to get the right answers for each questions.does this mean i have to find it out myself the hard way or it will never have an answer?for a 15 year old girl,i sure have many things to think about.but..wait..no,i'm wrong.i dont have many things to think about..theres just one.above all,thats the most important thing thats in my head.now i'm confuse whether i should find out the answer or leave it..is that it?that one question in my head which is causing me to have a strong curiosity?sigh,nevermind.sometimes,i wish that all will be well with everyone in this world.full of happyness and no such thing as sadness,sorrow,pain that bestows upon anyone.if its like that,i bet everyone will be having one great life.well,this kind of stuff really exist through my imagination..thats right..imagination.but is this all really came true,will it be known as life?when i think back,life means something.its so important and people exist because of it.right now,the thing i saw,was it an ostacle for me to face in order to reach my goal?if thats the case,it makes me feel sad.but ya know what?i might have said it cause me sadness but i'm gonna face that obstacle hand down.no matter how much it hurts or kill me,i'm gonna break those obstacles that will continue in order for me to reach my destination!i just have to stay strong and believe because by believing,just a little believe can give u a big success.just yesterday,one of the member of parents teachers association in my school gave a speech.--"one of thing that made me successful was by imagination.it all comes down to our attitude.compare a chicken and an eagle.they are both bird but whats different is that one of them can fly and because it can fly so high in the sky,that makes it more special.its flies freely and that might just have gave it success as a bird.many of you are chickens,still learning,but looks to the left and look to the right,a very little of you are eagles"--thats was what he said.interesting,right?and no doubt about it,everything he said is true.now,i just have to work hard and believe,i'm sure that it will help me.

hrm....i've been thinking these days.about many things.some are difficult and hard to imagine and some are just sad.to be honest,i feel confuse and uncertain.why u ask?well,lets say i have many things to think about.i've been keeping and holding on to a feeling for so long which is hard to say but it feels like a rock fell on my heart and its been there for so long.i'm always smiling but when that certain thought comes to me,all i ever do is feel sad and the painful feeling comes back.i'm able to smile just for a while again after that but maybe thats the true meaning of my name.felicia means happyness.maybe thats why i'm often seen as a happy person.smiling all the time.but theres a thought in my head that always makes me feel depress.i think i know what it is.all my life,i've been fooled and acted as a fool.sometimes i do the wrong things without noticing it and because of that,i think i might have hurt a few people.i guess i can be called as a selfish person.being a 15 year old girl and going to highschool and being the eldest sibling,its hard and stressful.but compare to others like my mom and dad,my problem is nothing.sometimes,i might have thought that going to school just makes me feel angry.all of this change when i met someone.turns out in the end,i like this person.wait,no.i mean i came to love him.it was that very place that i always stood even when it rain or shining brightly and waited for uncle bus that made me to meet him.under that very tree right opposite of the school i go.these days i never stood there like i did in form 1.but sometimes i would walk across the road and go to that very place.i realise that i've come to love that place for it was the place that gave me happyness in life.gareth hoom...what can i say abt him...funny,friendly,kind,childish,entertaining,and sometimes often think negative.hahaha,but i guess thats what makes people love him a lot.also,he is able to make others happy.sometimes,when i think back on the day he left,i just wondered why didnt i just jump on a cab and went and tell him goodbye at the airport.i'm a fool.the happyness i have now is because i'm able to be with him.because of him,i was able to feel true love for the first time.now,i pray that i'm able to see him this year.no matter what,i have to go.somehow,i'm gonna make it possible.thats a thing i'm willing to put my life on.

William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet quotes

"For never was a story of more woe
Than this of Juliet and her Romeo."


"O Romeo, Romeo! wherefore art thou Romeo?
Deny thy father and refuse thy name.
Or if thou wilt not, be but sworn my love
And I'll no longer be a Capulet."